Just heard the news. I didn't make it through Civil Services Prelims. The UPSC has not declared the results yet though. I got this information from an insider there. I so wish he was wrong, but that's unlikely.
I am a bit upset, yes, but it's funny how you push and cajole yourself by thoughts of getting up after each blow before it actually hits you. When it hits you, that moment in time, that instant, is disconnected, somehow from the often glorified hero's comeback that follows. I am living in an extended wake of that instant at the moment. I've been punched hard in the face and everything's just white. I do not know if I'll get up and hit back... Right now, I am numb.
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